Singer and businesswoman Esther Akoth alias Akothee has opened up about how depression is ugly and how she used to judge people who used to commit suicide.
Akothee recounts her past dark memory, and how she used to think about bad times because she was surrounded by negative people who never wanted the best for her.
“Never underestimate the power of negative thinking. I used to judge those who commit suicide until I lost my mind and realized that, once you lose your energy to the negative environment, and you can’t breathe or sleep anymore, there is no reason to live. Have you ever felt alone in a world full of people? I still can’t understand
When nothing makes sense anymore and you craving for sleep, is nothing to joke about,” she posted
She went ahead and said that at some point in life when she was admitted to the hospital, she did not want to live anymore as she wanted to be injected with something that would make he sleep forever.
“I remember asking the doctor if He can inject me with a very strong medicine so I can sleeeeeeeep without waking up
I was crying like a child for sleep. No one could understand me and I insulted them in my heart
If I picked up a phone of a loved one I would just start crying, I also didn’t know I was into this mess
It Took me self-love to start Addressing what is ailing me. I took a pen and a piece of paper and .wrote down all the things that drain my energy and cover my mind. I spoke to myself and consulted a few people. I had to make drastic decisions however hard they could be.
Trust me, I FEEL GOOD LIFE IS SWEET,” she wrote.